Numb

Heya people : D

Nothing much happened this few days...... Same old routine...... Guess the hols are like that...... Or maybe I'm just not finding stuff to do.....

Anyway... Saturday...... Went to Thomson plaza... (Correct spelling...?) Had some porridge there..... Quite nice... : D And shopped for loads of groceries..... Yeah..... Nothing exciting happened there. Sunday too.... Just stayed at home..... Damn should've been out there playing table-tennis..... How many months have I not touched my racket? Sighhh.......... Hand's getting itchy TTM.

I WANNA PLAY TABLE TENNIS Dx

Ok....... Now I feel like spamming music into my ears now..... Haha....

Recent music I'm listening too....

1. Waiting for the end- Linkin Park
2. Numb - Linkin Park (LOL. Got myself addicted again)
3. Sweet serendipity - Lee DeWyze
4. Grenade - Bruno Mars :)
5. Fireworks - Katy Perry XD
6. AIRPLANES - B.o.B ft. Hayley Williams
7. Love the way you lie - Eminem ft. Rihanna

Yeah..... NICE songs...... Or my taste of songs.... Whichever way.... XD

Now time for some opinions...... Skip this part if you don't wanna read......

Oh GOD. STOP BEING SO CHILDISH. PUHLLEEEASE. You give me attitude, even when you're wrong. Doesn't mean I'm your brother does not mean the rules don't apply. You think you've got attitude? You give me attitude? You've given it to the wrong person hmm? You want attitude? I GIVE YOU attitude. Don't regret ok? Think you're a tough nut to crack? I can crack you like nobody's business.... It's just whether I choose to a not.... And you cry just because you can't go out to play? PUHLEASE. Act your age can? And when you play, you try ta act tough in front of your friends  
Yeaahmm? Come on. Your attitude. Must stop. You might even end up worse then those in my school. You act like a dog. That's all I've to say.
Yeah.... That all folks... Cya~

Laziness~~~

Hello people =D missed me again? XD Haha....

Ok... Life's generally ok luh... Life was kinda dull during a certain point, but yeah, Noe there's a million reasons to smile~~~ :D

Ok.... Couple things happened since my last post... Had our m10103 class outing~ watched the narnia show.... Ok luh... Typical plot... INCEPTION STILL PWNZZ! Haha...

Later went to val's with the group... Tod games... It's always good to play if you've nothing to hide.... But still I do have stuff to lose... Nor would I want lose them.... De javu all over again~~ *correct spelling?*

Haha... Nothing much happened after that... Lol. Same old schedule... Wake up, brush teeth, eat, library, use com, spam music. Yeah....

15th December..... uuber fun can? Had a earful of music :D damn nice... Damn fun XD shan't say much for the sake of the rest.... Lol...


Hey people! Practice for k? *his is for specified people, so I'd you don't understand, too bad :)* XD

Ok... Lets start on today.... Went fir the faraday outing... Average luh... Pros and cons... Went there for a reason, but apparently had fun for another... Hansel ftw~~ Never had a laugh for a loooooooooonnngggggg looooooooonnnnnnggggg time hmm?

Haha... So met jaryl and luther at woodlands, and WH at ang mo kio. Met the seniors at city hall.... Think I know how miss sie feels now... Those seniors, are like crazy monkeys. Best part. Some are wearing the school logo. Man do they know what's shame? No comments hmm? Hansel I feel your pain.....

Haha.... So apparently that day, my phone had 1 bar left... For the whole day.... Dx Forget charge... >.< Lol. And I called hansel a bit too late... XD Yeah.... WH and I waited for him... Know's what's the best part?


WE GOT LOST. *Oh the horror*

lol.

So yeah.... Ok... Thanks to Jaryl's awesome sms-sent directions -.- Sigh.... Nvm.... But I'm not sure if hansel and WH would say the same... XD We walked the wrong path 4 times to and fro without knowing it's wrong :) LOL
On the bright side, at least I exercised :D 

XD

Chat a lot with Hansel.... Haven't seen him since school closed..... Laughing the whole day... :D Never felt this relaxed at home.... Yeah.... Cycled like nuts. Walked 1.5 km to the bicycle rental place? Another cycled back 1.5. And another 3km slowly with hansel. And chiong back that 3km. Haha...... And another 1.5km. Do the maths people. Now how many km did Zack cycle? XD LOL

Haha.... Went back around 5.30.... The temperature damn good that day.... Drizzling but yet doesn't.... Really nice temperature..... Nice :D

Yeah.... And now I'm still feeling sleepy.... Dx Haha.... Maybe that's good good sign? Haha....

That's all.... Cya folks~ 

 
 

Hello People~~~
MISSED ME? XD Hahaha...... =P

Ok....... Sorry for the long deadness of me bloggy..... Can't find any reason to update...... Ah well.
Lemme begin...

Yesterday was my 'class gathering' for primary school...... Kinda epic. The venue wasn't decided until the night before the gathering. XD haha.... Yeah. It's that organized. XP

Ok... Went to admiralty at 1... Thought I was gonna be late... But even the teacher was late by 15 mins -.- nvm... She got her own reasons.... In the end, only like 16 turn up? Long time I saw those ppl... They never change.... ACCEPT one thing. THEY ALL TURNED HORNY. Dx YES. Hornier than jaryl... *shudders*

Ok... So in the end went to vivo... Ate some stuff there... Guess what happened? ICE THROWING FIGHT! XD yeah. Ice is cold. Gals throw against guys.... *I sense a mini-WWIII*

Then later some guys went time zone... The rest of us went to the skypark? Where water bodies are located. Guess what came next? Empty bottle+water= splashing time... XD wakakakaka

Haha... Luckily I brought some extra clothes... Unlike the rest...... Haha... This I call being prepared... XD haha... Pity the rest... Whole body wet. Chester even lost his slipper to the roof... HAHA... Got thrown to the roof by joseph... XD too bad chestnut...

BUT. Fun always come with injuries right? Zzz... Yeah... Kenna one splinter on my toe... Now it's like an atomic blast site. Can't do much.... Luckily it's out now... Phew...

Sigh.... I feel so emo.... And confused. Meh. It's so hypocrital... And weird too. Sigh. It's so screwed. Don't know what to do... Feel so lost... Sigh...

That's enough for the day... Bye~

Hello people......

Finally time to update! XD Ok...... Lets start off with the movie yesterday?

Yeah...... Went to Dhoby Ghout (Epic spelling?) with Weiheng...... Apparently DELVIN didn't want to follow me cause of *ahem*... Nvm... I understand... And on with the epic story. LOL

Yeah... Reached the station, were suppose to watch the movie at The Cathay... Apparently, Val, Madhu and the rest went to the WRONG exit. LOL. Together with the rest of the group. Oh yeepie. A game of hide and seek. Hahaha....... xD

Ok... Harry Potter was good. Yeah... To bad, it's only part one..... Sigh..... Ah well... 8 months of waiting... >.< Yeah...... Played a bit of ToD...... Kinda epic. Shan't say much... But yeah. Screw the game TTM.

Been really confused lately. Messed up, frustrated, screwed up, pissed off, confused. You name it. All these may just be from a misunderstanding. Lack of understanding. Lack of information. I don't know... Really. Its like the ribbon in a tug-of-war. Getting pulled by both sides. Hovering around the centre point mindlessly. It sucks ok. Sigh.


No matter how low you go, you will go up someday. Even if you feel that you reached the bottom, you will still go up. Even if you're close to dying, I will still be there. You taught me how to not give up, no matter how low you go. But now, at this state, there is nothing you can do, but pick those sticks on the floor. This is just an obstacle in your race. That hurdle. If you can't cross this, think about what others in like Africa are facing. This hurdle you can't cross, does not mean its the end of your race. Please... Let us help...

Thats all for now...

Wheeee~~

Hello again people~ ^^ Haven't been updating for quite a while... No mood to do so...... Bleh. X.x

Sigh...... To those that want to know about my results. Lemme tell you. Nothing but screwed ok? I admit I screwed it up... But doubt there is any need for suaning right? Zzz.

Anyway.
English. 25/50 *YES. I JUST PASSED. SO LUCKY*
IH 23/40 *Don't know what happened... Lol*
Chinese 71/100 *Kinda surprised*
Maths 41/64 *Bleh. X.x*
Chem 68.5/80 *Hmm... Not bad... But a few careless mistakes >.<*
Physics 49.5/70 *O.o*
Bio 59/80 *O.o o.O*

Eh. GTG liao... Later kenna by mum. Lol. Update some time tomorrow? Stay tuned to this post...

EXAMS OVER~~

Hallo People~ Shall make this a quick one?

Ah... The exams. 
I BET I SCREWED UP AT LEAST HALF OF ALL THE EXAMS.
Yeah... Seriously. Damn it. English and Chem last Monday...... Bah. Screwed that English paper up... BIG TIME. Damn dumb sia. They tell me to summarise paragraphs 5-12...  
AND THE SMART ME SUMMARISED FROM 1-20. FML.

Yeah... Chem was ok luh...... Not so bad...... I think everyone's gonna score in Chemistry.... Lol.

Physics. Screw that !@#*%$ up paper... (No offences)  Lol. Actually, its wasn't so bad... But anything to do with Kinematics = Zack GG really badly. Really hate Sem 1's work. Ah well... So Theatrically, I screwd up half of the paper. Yeah.

Wednesday... GAH. That Maths paper is more !@#*%$ up. (No offences again) Damn luh... Left 1/4 of the paper blank... 16 damn mark... Ryan lost 24 too I think...... Jaryl lost 20... Sigh..... Screw.

Was mugging for IH like nuts during the break. Yeah... IH was ok...... Not so bad.......

Now what did I say... I screwed up Bio, English, Maths and half a Physics paper. Isn't it half of the exams? Lol. Wonder how I didn't screw my Chinese. LOL.

Now just a rough update of my life this month?
Haha.... Today had LOADS of fun playing risk. LOL. Pri school ppl still make me laugh. Was playing Risk...... Fun game that requires the mind... Got ganged up by both friends. Dx Haha... While rolling the dice...
BANKAI. RASENGAN. KAGEBUNSHIN NO JUTSU.

Yeah...... And not forgetting music~~
The songs I've been listening to for this few days....

1. The Catalyst - Linkin Park
2. Waiting for the End - Linkin Park
3. Kissin u - Miranda Cosgrove
4. Smile - Uncle Kracker
5. Iridescent - Linkin Park
6. Please don't go - Mike Posnee
7. Elevator - David Archuleta
8. Don't let me fall - B.O.B
9. Na na na - My Chemical Romance
10. Your love is a Lie - Simple Plan

Yeah..... LOL.
Yeah...... Oh well... Feeling confused for this few days... Very the bored too...... Ah well... LOL.
*So much for a short post*
*Whistles innocently*

Signing off~

Exams~

Hallo Peeps =D
I know, I know... I should be mugging.... But yeah... Chem and English tomorrow... The paper's I'm most confident in (:
Yeah... Talking about Friday's exam...
Chinese was UNUSUALLY EASY
As for the HMT people, I heard that their paper was tough. Oh well... JYs People!
Bleh. Screwed up bio TTM. So lucky that what I mugged before the paper came out... Or else I'm really DEAD.
Yeah... Just finished mugging Chem.... Kinda confident :)


I'm feeling the school load catching up with me now...... Feeling the stress and tenseness... Take the Bio exam for Example. Bleh. >.<
My health is kinda bad too...... Losing appetite... The desire for sleep is very high too...... *Yawn*
My stomach's been acting up too... Nose too... Eyes feeling sore... Is it the haze? I dunno? Stress? Bahh.

Listening to 98.7 FM now. ~~Random~~

Feeling very down this few days too... Don't know what's exactly affecting me now...... Exams? Relationships with family? Don't know...... Or maybe it's something to do with realising my goals and stuff...... For now, I don't what I'm exactly fighting for...... The lost feelings suck. Really. Badly.

And yeah.... When I grow up and IF I have kids, I wouldn't want their age gap to be too far apart...... Like hell. My. F***ed up Brother won't seem to understand. See? That's what you get if the age gap is too far... Each won't understand each other. Same problem here. It just sucks ok? He's the playful type, I'm the serious type. Complete mismatch. Nothing much I can do anyway... Ah well.......


Ok... Thats for today.. Bye~

MY BLOOOG STILL ALIVE~~~

Phew...... My blog still ALLLIIIIIVEEEE~~~ Teehee~~

Gosh...... Haze is really bad...... 102 PSI...... Like Wth. I'm coughing, with my eyes stinging...... Even my brother's eyes itch badly...... Bleh. Who to blame? Those people...... Won't they understand that Mother Earth is dying? Seriously. Are they plain dumb or plainly don't care. If they continue, I'm soooo gonna HANTAM them...... Anyway, I heard, that Indonesia's haze is PSI of 300...... Thrice of ours. Professianal eh.

Bleh. Haze affecting me quite badly too....... Feeling really tired and low energies....... Wanna sleep everyday...... Today felt damn weird... Screwd up nose, screwed up eyes, dry mouth. Gah = Perfect life :)

Going on...... Simple plan is awesome can? Damn the nice. Should go try. Written in the stars too :) Very the nice......

Anyway...... Exams are coming... Next Friday... Haven't switched to mug-mode yet... Bleh. Shish... To slack liao luh. Or maybe I'm just plain lazy. XD

Today celebrated TH's b'dae... Was kinda sucessful? I think? XD Before that had maths. Made me kinda emo... I mean like, do ALL boys just need to open their mouths? Seriously... I feel that its kinda genderist...... Just that the boys in NUSHS are like that, doesn't mean ALL boys are like that. I shall prove it yea. Damn it.

ANYWAY. This few days. Getting. More. And. More. Messed. Up. Gah. Especially. In. School. Work.

Thats it peeps... Till next time :)
Seeya~

Long time

Hallo People~~ IMM BACCK~ XD
Anyone missed me? Haha...... Oopsie~

Ok... Lemme start...
Gah. Main stream peoples' exam finish liao... While we mug, mug, mug and mug. Bleah... >.<
Nothing much we could do anyway...... Hansel's last exam paper ended today... Bio-chem. Cheer up yea, nothing much you can do... As long as you feel that you've done your best, its fine, really. Thats how I live my study life since young... Adopted it from my awesome dad :)

First Math Lesson with Miss Sie...... Awesome teacher if you would ask me. Her voice keeps me awake and I like her teaching style. Teehee~~ Need time getting used to though...... Wishing Ms Ng all her best with her new-born XD

Today was kinda epic though...... Apparently, some moth flew through a fan, and half died? I don't know... And I don't wanna know... Don't know why people had to made it such a big fuss...... Sigh...... Imagine, you're emo-ing, and some random, unknown people just come and crowd around you. Not a nice feeling right? Same thing happening to me. Some people are just insensitive......

Getting screwed up in my work these few days...... Especially in co-ordinate geometry...... Sigh... Bio and their molecules too...... Argh. Chemistry failing me too... Especially in Acids and Bases. Slowly but surely...

No matter how many times I told myself...... To prevent it from distracting.... Just can't seem to throw it out of my mind. This is driving me crazy. Sigh... Want more explanation? Not now...... Next time perhaps? Its always a bitter-sweet feeling. The suan in the heart. Just plain suck-ish. Life sucks. For now.


ANYWAY. I've got awesome people to keep me company :) Teehee... Ohoh... And I just went to have a listen with Simple Plan (Its a band) Thanks Lisa :)
Holy crap. Its awesome yea.

No CCA for the rest of the time until exams are over Dx. Feel the suan? Yes... No table-tennis... >.<

I just had to fall into that pit. That very pit. In that pit, everything in your body contradicts. Your pride, your heart, your brain, your experience. And to make a decision, is freakin hard. 

Over and Over

Awesome song if you would ask me... Go on... Search youtube =D 



I feel it everyday it's all the same
It brings me down but I'm the one to blame
I've tried everything to get away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to

It feels like everyday stays the same
It's dragging me down and I can't pull away
So here I go again
Chasing you down again
Why do I do this?


Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try

So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead
I know what's best for me
But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time

Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to


P.s You may have guessed it, maybe you haven't, but this song is awesome and posted for a reason

2 Birthdays~~~

Harllo People~~~


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR 2 BROTHERS~~~
JARYL & HUGH

Yea... Just came back from celebrating my bro's 9th b'dae... Ate at Swenson's. DAMN they've got AWESOME Ice-Cream......
Bro got another useless lego thingy and some Gandam (LOL? Fail spelling) figures.

Yea... Finally got my new spectacles... Damn clear... Feeling slightly giddy now... Like the whole computer screen turned bright.
AND I GOT MY NEW AWESOME EARPIECES~~~ BOOYEA! 
Haha... Early B'dae pressie from Dad... Cause got promotion. Damn its good... The base especially. Whee~~~
 And I just read Yahoo! News...... May Mrs Lee Kuan Yew rest in peace... Without you, Singapore would not have been sucessful... May your soul be blessed......

Its funny how the heart and the brain contradict each other...... Maybe I should do the logical? Or should I go on, and not back down? I know...... Alot of people have been telling me to stop and just forget, but you know how hard it is? Sigh... I really don't know what to do...... Should I be honest with my feelings? Perhaps it would go away... Slowly but surely......

And I don't know I'm sway or what, but when I was thinking about this, Swenson's music players played Crush by David Archuleta. LOL eh. XD

That's it for today... Nighty nights.


You say
You're not gonna fight
Cause no one will fight for you
And you think
There's not enough love
And no one to give it to
And you're sure
You've hurt for so long
You've got nothing left to lose
So you say
You're not gonna fight
'Cause no one will fight for you
You say
The weight of the world
Has kept you from letting go
And you think
Compassion's a flaw
And you'll never let it show
And you're sure
You've hurt in a way
That no one will ever know
But someday
The weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
Hold on
The weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
So hold on
The weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
So hold on
The weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go
Just hold on
The weight of the world
Will give you the strength to go

Robot Boy by Linkin Park

 

#32

Hallo Peeps~~~

Uwaaaaa~~~ So many tests... Sigh... Think I screwed up some? Argh... So crappy... But what to do?

Ok... Lets start updating about today...

Just came back from a loooooooooooooooooooooooong day. Yea, its thaaaaaaaaat long. XD

Started off with CIP programme to Ju Eng Nursing Home... Yea... Had to assemble in school at 7.15... So I set my phone alarm to 5.15... But the EXTREMELY smart me, went to put 0000 instead. FML eh. So the freakin phone rang in the MIDDLE of the NIGHT, which is MIDNIGHT. Screw. Ah. So I set it back to normal. And guess what. I over slept. FFFFMMMMMLLLL~~~

Ah... So I rushed to school. Only to reach there at 6.45. Sigh. And the day was just beginning....

Yea... Reached the home. Performed magic tricks, but the old people all DAO us. Sianzzzz.... Then we were like performing to the air. What to do... Nursing home ma... But at least I got to chat with some grandma's and grandpa's...

Yea... At the end of CIP, went for Table-Tennis training with Shi Jer... Left together with Chen Ge and Wan Qi... And guess what.

WE GOT LOST
Yea. Got to the LRT station... Which was damn ooloo (Correct?) (Means deserted) Nobody de... Oh the horror.

Yea... Then we got off at Seng Kang MRT. Only to find that its the WRONG STATION. Teeheee~~~ Awesome eh. Suppose to get off at Thong wha...? Yea... Something like that. Know the best part? Shi Jer and I ate KFC, which awarded us with STOMACHACHES. =D Just before the training =D Yea. Screw.

Hahahahaha....... Then went back to the LRT to go back to the correct station... Almost missed the stop.

*Re-enactment*
Me: Isit this stop?
Shi Jer: I dunno...
Me: Wheres the signboard?
Shi Jer: I dunno... *Looks out of window*
*Sudden realization*
Shi Jer: EHHHHHHHH!!!!! IS THAT SENG KANG SPORTS AND RECREATIONAL CENTRE?!??!
Me: Ah crap. OUUTTTTTT!!!
LOL. Damn fail right.
Then we went to the centre. Only to get lost. AGAIN
Went up to the wrong carpark, and then walked down a slope. A MEGA-SIZED SLIDE! Fail. LOL


Finally got to the CORRECT place. Phew. And trained like nuts. 3 hours straight. 2 people. Woah.... Damn nice.
You may skip the next part...

Seriously. You are getting on my nerves. LIKE WHAT THE F***. Would you forgive anyone for apologizing at you when they don't know what the reason they are apologizing for? Seriously? Am I that petty? To me pissed with you for getting irritated? And you still raise your voice at me? Lemme get this straight. I AM NOT THAT WIMPY LITTLE DUMMY FOR YOU TO SCREAM AT. WHENEVER YOU TREAT ME AS A DUMMY, I ACT LIKE I DON'T CARE, BUT IN FACT, YOU GET ON MY FCKING NERVES. AND WHO SAID WE WERE EVER FRIENDS? I HATED YOU SINCE YOU REVEALED YOUR TRUE COLOURS, BUT YOU STUCK TO ME LIKE A SUCKER FISH! HONEST;LY, WERE WE EVEN FRIENDS TO START WITH? I WAS NEUTRAL WITH YOU. BUT NOW? YOU JUST MAKE ME MORE PISSED WITH EVERY WORD YOU SPEAK. SCREW OFF! YOU WANNA KNOW WHY IM PISSED? I'M TELLING YOU NOW!

I HATE YOU BLOODY ATTITUDE.

I HATE THE WAY YOU TREAT ME

I HATE THE WAY YOU PUSH THE BLAME TO OTHERS TO PREVENT YOURSELF FROM GETTING ANY HARM

I HATE THE WAY YOU TRY AND PRY YOURSELF OUT OF YOUR MISTAKES INSTEAD OF FACING THE CONSEQUENCES.

FORGET IT. ITS OVER.

Ok. Good night. Bye. 

Long update~~~

Hallo Peeps~~~

First week of term 4 just ended. How was it? Fun? Not exactly for me. Yea. FML.

Monday... Was good :) Lessons as per normal...... But I got to see those faces I missed so much! Haha...
Apparently, Chinese teacher didn't come...
*Sad*
Kenna replace by the 3rd lang chinese teacher if im not wrong... Well, did an essay? On the recent hostage incident. Remember? The hong kong thingy in Philippines? Yea... That. Think I screwed up pretty badly. D=

Tuesday! PE AWESOME~~~ Haha... 'Catch me if you can' game was fun... My primary school's version was Alligator. LOL right? XD Then had discus throwing. ZOMG... Mr Foo was awesome =D
Anyway, the hula-hoop throwing is something like table-tennis, the transfer of body weight, stuff like that. Teehee~~~
Chinese. Teacher didn't come. Again. Yes. You feel the horror. =P Did some Chinese open-ended...

Wednesday... Average... Da vinci was damn fail... Zzz... Screwed up TTM luh my project... GG liao. Physics assignment wasn't so bad... I'm quite happy with my physics test results though =D Hard work finally paid off... Me awesome~~~ *Ego*

Thursday... Maths file check... Hehe... 10/10. XD Anyway, quite average.


Fryday... Sigh. Some ****ed up random crap day. Sorry for being vulgar... I'm just damn pissed. Sigh... To think CCA was gonna be awesome.
Sigh... Lucky some people weren't in table-tennis... You wouldn't want to see me that pissed anymore... Ok?

The people I hate the most in this world, are those that piss me off when I'm already pissed, people that peeks into others privacy, and those attention seekers. Seriously. All these people JUST HAVE to appear on Friday.

Honestly, how would you like if some bastard just peeks into your phone. IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES AND CONTINUES DOING IT LIKE NO ONE'S BUSINESS. Like what the heck? Nvm... I told that guy nicely to stop. Don't wanna stop? Hehe... Only After I give you a look you stop. Fine. I let you off.
Then you come and disturb me and shi jer while we play Table-Tennis? Definitely asking for it. Still continue disturb. Honestly, I haven't been so pissed till I used physical contact. You deserved my paddle stuck into your throat.

Know what? I pity my paddle damn badly then your fat, oversized, worthless throat.

Then an attention seeker comes. Starts to disturb Delvin. Again. 
We asked: What did Delvin do? 
He replied: He did everything.
What's everything?
He did everything.
What do you mean everything?
Everything.
Honestly, what would you gain from all this shit. Seriously. And I TOLD YOU TO BACK OFF BECAUSE I WAS CLOSE TO EXPLODING. YOU CAME FORWARD. I GAVE YOU A PIECE OF MY MIND. AND YOU GAVE THE LOOK OF CRYING? Seriously? I HATE THIS KIND OF PEOPLE. LIKE SERIOUSLy. YOU WANNA GAIN ATTENTION? WHY NOT DO IT THE PROPER WAY. HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF TREATING PEOPLE NICELY? AND LOOKING AND THE SCENARIO FROM A DIFFERENT POINT OF VIEW?? THIS HAS TO STOP. YOU SELF-ESTEEM TOO.


You disgust me.

Thats all. Bye.

Update

Heya... Sorry for not updating... Very busy... This coming saturday... After all the holiday homework are handed up...

#29

Yo People~ :)

Just came back from family outing... Haha... Been a long time yea......
Woots... Went to もみじ (Momiji) for buffet Japanese food! A LOT better then Sakura's... No offence.
The Sushi was AWESOME. The soup was AWESOME.
The chawanmushi (According to Jaryl) *Its a egg thingy* was AWESOME.
THERE WAS EVEN A GIANT CHOCOLATE FONDUE~~~

Yea... While eating, chatted with family... Long times since we had this kind of chat. Yea... After the meal...

Went to Plaza Singapura for shopping? Haha... Rather call it wasting my time. -.- But... Nvm.

Going to play table-tennis soon... Yes... Table-Tennis again. You heard me right. Cause it the BEST sport they ever invented~~~ Haha...


I'm a screw up one way or another...... Damn it. Hw not done. Bio not even started. Futhermore, my emotions are turning from bad to worse. Damn it eh.
How I wish I could control time. I wouldn't be in this crap if I didn't take this path. Nothing but darkness...... But along this darkness, who knows. There maybe the light, or, maybe a beast awaiting my arrival, only to put me in more crap. Oh well...

Ok... Signing off~~~
ハッピー休暇

Somewhere I belong~~~

Damn I got myself addicted with this song... Awesome... And to a certain extent, somewhat my feelings now.
Teehee~~~ Thanks to linkinpark.com for the lyrics.




When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find / that I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck / Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere i belong
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused looking everywhere / only to find that it's
Not the way i had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I what do I have but negativity
'Cause i can't justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain / Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own
I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today
I want to heal
I want to feel like
I'm somewhere I belong

#28

Hello People~~~ When was the last time I blogged? Monday right? Ah... Monday... Right...

Monday... Went for Table-tennis competition... Thought I was gonna get pwned... But yea... Managed to win. Then a walkover cause the other guy didn't come... Yea... Next match was wednesday... Then I got back and yea... Emo? Yeps... Monday... Ohoh... Brother fell sick... Went to have blood test in case tio dengue...

And then Tuesday... The best day of the holiday I think... Went with the group... Met at Bukit Panjang LRT... So freakin sad... Hansel couldn't join us... >.<  Anyway... Met up with David, Ethan, Carilynne, Lisa, Woo Jin, Delvin and Jaryl. Yea... Took bus 75? To Great World City... Met with Anders, Rittik, TZ, Madhu, Valerie and WH.

INCEPTION IS AWESOME~~~

At the end of the show, some people were discussing the show... Yea... Who actually discusses movies? LOL sia... Later went to David's house and slacked... Then had BBQ~~~

Later that night... Ah... Don't talk about it. Its not that I'm ignoring you. I just need to sort my whole mind out first. Just don't bother about me and sort your stuff first... Ok?

And today... Went for T-T competition, round of 64... Got pwned by a HCI guy... Damn... Could've won... But yea... Didn't play well enough... Legs were heavy... Didn't move... Very unstable strokes... So yea... Damn it... But nvm... Ah well...

Haha... Signing off~~~

Sudden realisation

Took me long enough to realize what an idiot I am...... Blame my poor observations... Scrolling through messages and facebook posts. Finally. Realised. What a freakin idiot I was. Took really wrong. Whats got into me? Why was I doing this? Was it worth it? What did I gain? Heh. Honestly, no idea.

Wake in a sweat again
Another day's been laid to waste
In my disgrace
Stuck in my head again
Feels like I'll never leave this place
There's no escape
I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up, I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I'm suffocating
Tell me what the f*** is wrong with me

I don't know what to take
Thought I was focused, but I'm scared
I'm not prepared
I hyperventilate
Looking for help, somehow, somewhere
And no one cares
I'm my own worst enemy

I've given up, I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I'm suffocating
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me

Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my misery!
Put me out of my
Put me out of my f****ng misery!

I've given up, I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say?
Take this all away, I'm suffocating
Tell me what the f*** is wrong with me

~~~Given up by Linkin Park~~~

#25

HELLO PEOPLE~~~
Has been long since I wrote on the blog... No time luh... Everyday come home freakin late. Haha... Lets begin with the general re-cap... Happy reading ^.^


Monday...... Had the AWESOME SPORTS DAY~~~  

Reached school in my bloated faraday shirt =D  Yea...... Damn nice...... Lisa was freakin fast... Like the wind... Best part was getting the refreshments... Haha... Delvin and MJ down there fooling around TTM. Bananas! XD



The teachers race and stuff were awesome!!!  At first... We were losing TTM...... Then...... P.E teacher took over... BOOMZ. Caught up with the other houses. Then another P.E teacher! BOOMZ... Barely winning... Then Mr. Haris Tan! Woah... Like the wind... Awesome.

Nevertheless...

Fibo--- 1st

 Fleming--- 2nd
Faraday---3rd
Nobel--- 4th


But... Overall...

Fibo--- Still 1st Damn
Faraday--- 2nd
Nobel--- 3rd
Fleming--- Last... XD

Haha... Now tuesday... The teachers day was ok... But the teacher's award giving and the 'guess the teacher quiz' is DAMN funny... The D.I.C.E band was quite good too... Shadow of the day FTW~~~


Now... Wednesday... Damn nice... Cause I went to play table tennis~~~ Haha... Table tennis NEVER FAILS to make my day... WOOTS~~~

Trained with Li 老大 For 3.5 hours with shi jer... Damn... I got pwned by a senior citizen... Damn good blocker... Zzz....

Now thursday... The day started off fine... With my stomach acting up -.-|||  Yea... Than met MJ & Del late... Lessons as per normal... Nothing unusual... Until... The night... Damn that Delvin. Sigh......

Friday... Emo-ed a bit I guess... As for why? =#
Er.. First... Chem assignment was kinda ok... Accept the third question... Damn.
IH was ok.


But......











CCA WAS ONCE AGAIN AWESOME!!!!!! Went to KFC to eat... Ashburn and his ice shooting skills... Damn it.
Night... Couldn't sleep as well... Sigh.


Ok... Thats it for today... *cough cough*
P.S My brother is sick tooHaha... Bye~~~    

Argh......

こんにちは peeps!
Argh!!!! Falling sick... Crap sia... Maybe Jacelyn passed it to me... Ah well... Having random spells of stomach aches, as well as a running nose... Is weird eh. Why do feet smell and nose run? Weird world... XD

Ok... The game 'Anno' is damn fun can? Thanks to Hansel for sending me... :)

Now, for a general re-cap for the past few days~~~



Friday, Chemistry lesson FTW~~~ Used Disolved Ammonia salts in Sodium Hydroxide...... Damn that ammonica. Should've listened to Mr Yeo... At first no smell de... *Because of my running nose* Then suddenly...... *Chokes* *Starts coughing* Yea... Blame my awesome stupidity. Oh well... Lesson learnt. Never ever sniff ammonia.


Now I understand why people used horse urine to force people conscious... Why? Horse urine is RICH in ammonia... Hahaha... : B  Played around with the other chemicals... Chemistry FTW~~~

And IH... Mr Lim didn't come... Damn sad... Kenna replaced by some teacher which reminded me of a teacher from my primary school... *Unpleasant memories* Now, the main course... CCA~~~

CCA is ALWAYS fun!!!  Haha... Damn nice... Started playing with song gee... Then slacked a bit...... Oops~~  Then played Li 老大 (Boss li)... Xp Damn fun... He cut, I pull... And around the cycle goes... For once, I played till my heart was content... Until...... *Shall not mention anything*


Then went to eat sumo house... Down there spreading our coldness... Had a really good laugh... But sometimes, its a bit too sick... Yea... As usual, the food took a LOOOOOONNNNGGG time to come... Reached home at around 9.15......

Saturday! Went with Hansel and Lisa to fold paper cranes at RI. Again, with Hansel there, we were LMAO-ing all the way~~~


RI is A-W-E-S-O-M-E TTM YEA~~~ So freakin big! 2 basketball courts, 1 soccer field, 1 baseball field and another field! A lot of halls around too... They even have 3 leatherette!!! Crap sia... Awesome... Started folding paper cranes... Then went to bishan to eat lunch. Met me Primary school junior there... His table tennis is awesome. Haven't played with him for a long time...

Got back and had piano lesson~~~

Sunday. Nothing much happened... Kinda average... But I woke up with a sore neck though. Going for table-tennis training soon...

Ok people~~~ Thats all for today...
さようなら!


I may pretend to be oblivious to the stuff around me, especially to the things happening to you. But I'm not... I know more than you think I know

Life as it has been...

Finally!!! Can use the com! Been coming back late at night these few days... Da vinci, YOG and CCA...... But it is always worth it. Keep my mind of stuff =D

Ok... Now where was I? Ah... Lets start with monday.

Monday was normal... CCA was EPICLY fun yea! Up or down? Spin or No-Spin? Hehe... Damn funny... Laughing our asses off... XDXD

Tuesday... A crappy day... Sigh... Regret a lot of stuff... I made a mistake I swore never to make ever again since last year. What did I do? Sigh... FML. Why were you such a screw up Zack? An idiot. Screw.   

*Emos*

Really sorry... Really really sorry...

Tried to run with Jaryl to take my mind off stuff... Haha... Leisure run to pace Jaryl. Gratz Jaryl and Ethan in getting their C's! Congratz! And Delvin got 30/30 points for his Napha! Holy crap...

Then went to watch YOG!!! The players are FFRRREEEEEEEEAAAAAKIIIINGGG PRO!!


Wednesday... That day damn tired... But physics was fun though... WH and the revolving ruler that likes him. XD WH, I think the ruler loves you... Keeps turning towards you. XP Trying hard to keep awake in Math... Was really tired.

A.C.E... Last Sexuality education lesson...(YES! FINALLY) Screw that lesson. Shan't say too much.

Bio... Went to do starch and reducing sugars tests... Damn fun! Especially squishing the onions up. XD

And finally, Today... Haha... Today was average... Started off with me over-sleeping!!!  XD Well... Then went to school and started off with English. English is fun yea! Started with inspiration from nature! Honestly, I have no idea what in nature I actually like... Its just, well... Soothing... Nice... Relaxing... Refreshing... That's one of the reasons I wanna become an environmentalist... Or an ecologist.

Then Chinese... Read the newspapers and talked about Taiwan's AWESOME FOOOOOOD~~~

Haha... Then maths... Maths was average.... Scored 9/10 for the class exercise! Haha...

Then Physics common test... Honestly, this is the FIRST test I felt that I didn't screw up! I feel so awesome!! LOL.

Ah well... Screwed the last question though... Haha...

Sigh... I'm really in a grave I dug myself... Problems all self-cost... If I knew how it was like... I wouldn't have fallen and dug that kind of grave... Or maybe I'm just thinking that I've problems.

Oh well... Thats all for today...

さようなら！

#22-- Life as it has been

こんいちは!

Finally! I can use the com! Been coming back very late at night this few days... Concerts, CCA, Da vinci. Yea... Life is normal. Accept there's tests, assignments. Not to mention problems here and there.

Wooooots!! Came back from Singapore indoor stadium to watch YOG Table-tennis! Not bad... Met my primary school form teacher there... Ok... The crowd down there is epic ok. Whenever Singapore lost a point, they go 'Oh...' And some people were giving me looks when I didn't clap for Singapore but for the opposing country. Shouldn't we clap for the shots we think are good, and not because that player is representing our country? Seriously. I don't understand.

Haha... Quite a number of people made me laugh... A child was singing 'waving flag' song. I was LMAO-ing TTM yea.

Then went for lunch at some kallang mall... Ate KFC... Then met MJ at stadium station and went back to watch YOG... Haha... A player was getting pwned by isabelle (Correct spelling?)... New Zealand getting pwned I think. Found my primary school people watching the match... Woah... I can't believe how immature the P6 batch this year batch is... They were spamming me weird questions... Couldn't help laughing at their immature-ness. And MJ, don't add fuel to fire -.-''  Then went back at around 4.45. Reached home at 5.50? 6?

General recap of the whole week... Tuesday's napfa was epic yea know? Sigh... Screwed up everything that has to do with legs. Shuttle run and Standing Broad Jump...


                                    Normal timings                         Napha timings

Shuttle run:                           10.3                                       10.5

Standing Broad Jump:           2m                                     186m

Sit-ups:                                  40+                                     42

Sit & Reach:                        30+ cm                                  42(Amazingly)


Pull ups:                               20+?                                      18


Went for the 'young pianist' concert last thursday... It was AWESOME.
Yao Yu was pro. I finally understand he meant by his brother being insane. Freakin awesome. Professional. Wonder when I would become like that. Or even IF i can.

Ah... Oh well... Why can't all questions be as easy as Yes & No questions?

Sigh.

Seriously. I haven't answer MJ's question for a week... Still thinking.

Sigh.

Tests coming. All the stress piling up inside. Topics gets chimmer and chimmer. I may just explode and screw up.

Sigh.

Haven't been sleeping well too. Crap.

Screw. Anyone can help?

Signing off~~~

'Sports day'

こにちは Peeps!
Sports day today... Ran 4x400m... Sorry Faraday... Screwed up TTM... Sigh... First chiong... Then fall back like shit... Damn sianz... Oh well... And to the people that helped me get up after the race and showed concern, thanks a lot :)

CCA was screwed TTM too... Legs dead, brain numb, arms screwed... But it was fun though... Ah well...

And FYI, the song I'm writing is NOT a love song or any other sort. I shall make it clear... Okay... Gotta sleep...

Memories... Dreams...

" One fine day, all of us will get busy with our lives, long working hours, less friends, less meetings, rare calls, no smses, no more late night chatting, won't have time for ourselves. At such a day, you'll look outside your window and see the good old memories flash by you and you'll get a tear in your eyes and you'll turn back to your work thinking "I wish I could go back."

Thank you Lisa for the message... Gave me inspiration for this post. Nice timing too... :)

Memories... Something that remains in your mind forever, despite it being good or bad. Well... This few days, weird memories of my past appear in my dreams. There was once, I imagined myself carrying out arson on our school... Using DAH's plasma gun... And you know Dual master cards, yu-gi-oh and pokemon? I mixed all their special features and it became a hybrid random game. LOL NO! XD

And people, my sense of judgment is impaired this few days... Trying to get it fixed... So don't bother asking me questions. Ok... General recap of the week... I'm running for FARADAY! 4x400m... Hope I don't fail my team... JB, MJ, Del and me!

Ohoh! The tests... Er... Basically, I screwed my Chinese TTM... As always... Bio is below average... Maths was ok... EXCEPT THAT FREAKIN LAST QUESTION. >.< Chem was normal... Except its sulfur dioxide... Not sulfate... Sianz... IH was easy... But I supplied the wrong info for the town centre question thingy... Oh well... At least I'm not screwed...

YOG OPENING CEREMONY IS AWESOME TTM CAN?

Haha... Going to watch Table-Tennis next sunday...

Time for some ranting...... I don't get the people around me... One is a parrot, another is a dog, and the last one is a volcano. Insensitive little freaks... But what can I do? They seem to focus only on my cons then pros. Or maybe they are correct. But seriously... They are pissing me off. TTM. Why should I sacrifice my CCA for you? What do you want from me? Seriously. I want to know what you want from me? I'm not that innocent little boy you once knew. I'm a freakin secondary guy in NUS high. Don't understand? Too bad... Think of a way. I don't need to get spoon fed. I want to put that spoon into my mouth myself. You understand?

And there's those insensitive little freakos in school. Not paying attention to my mood. Seriously. Be more sensitive. Please.

"Lost in a dark tunnel, trying to find that light"
Looks easy? Its not.

I wanna runaway, Never say goodbye, I wanna know the truth, Instead if wondering why,I wanna know the answers, no more lies, I wanna shut door and open up my mind~~~


P.S. Jacelyn, may I try using your poem as lyrics for a song I'm trying to compose?

Malaysia.

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY PEEPS!!!
Haha... I guess its kinda late though. But its the thought that counts! XD
Just came back from Malaysia! Went to Malacca.

Guess what's the first thing I bought? CHEWING GUM!!! IT ROCKS THE WORLD YEA!
Later went to eat Breakfast... When a commotion broke out.
Lady: Sir, satu umpat ($1.40). (Epic spelling?)
Dad: Oh. *Gives $1.80 worth of coins*
Lady: *Gives the puzzled look*
Dad: $1.80 right?
Lady: O.o Its $1.40. *Giggles*
*Entire coffee shop people looks at our table*
Damn funny can? I kept quiet even though I knew it was 1.40.
Evil me eh. XD

Saw a sign board. It said. Nasi lemak, Fried chicken wings, FRINCH fries
LOL... Epic spelling. No offenses.

Ok... Later carried on to our hotel... 2 hours journey... Was spamming my phone's music.
My dad and his anti-social stuff... Blah blah blah...
Ok... Got to the hotel... Checked in.

Then went to this FREAKIN BIG shopping centre. Its like 3x of vivocity!

Ate Japanese food. Its seriously Japanese. Even the menu is in Japanese. (With English subtitles)
*Calls for Jaryl*

Ok... Went to walk around the old places of Malacca... Saw all the stuff we are learning in IH.
Why am I reminded of IH when I'm on holiday? Weird eh.

Went around the old shop houses in Malacca... Like the ones you see in Chinatown. For once in this semester, I actually felt relax... Felt the times during the 1960's... Nice feeling... Apparently I still had to face the truth eh. Life is stressing.

Ok... No more emo-ing. The next day. Went to that same shopping mall to get a shirt... Got some monkey thingy... I got myself the LINKIN PARK ALBUM!!! FINALLY. FOUND WHAT I WANTED!
Haha... I gave you a warning. You asked for it. Don't blame me. You deserved it. Don't come crying to your mama complaining. Bitch. You want to piss me off? You haven't seen the worse yet.

Ok... Then we went back to check out. Then went to the shopping mall beside that 3x bigger then vivocity mall... This time its 5x BIGGER. DAMN BIG TTM CAN?

Whats with Malaysians and their obsession with Justin Bieber? I mean like. Seriously. What's so nice about him? Only a couple of his songs are nice. Oh well.

Oh no... I realised I lost my wallet... Crap! My EZ-link and NUS card! GG.com liao...

Just went to CCK to replace the EZ-link. Now my NUS card. Sigh... Oh well... MLIS TTM.

Many burning questions continue to burn... More flames sprouted out in my mind... More questions. Sigh... Who has water to help me put them out?
Where's the extinguisher when you need one. Sigh.

*Cough cough*

Sigh.... Ain't freakin fun being sick... X.x Sigh...
Ok... This is the story... Started off with napfa (Whats the actual spelling?)
Ran at a time of 12.08 mins. Personal best! But I got my calf and thigh for both legs screwed.
Thats when I got my cough...
Wednesday, started coughing pretty badly. Felt sick and crappy. I was stoning my way through physics. Brain could not absorb anything. Zzz... Lucky bio got canceled... Or else me GG liao...
Da vinci was fun yea. Went to cut the umbrella into 2. XD
Then when I got back from school, fever suddenly shot up to 38.8. Zzz la...

Went to see the doctor. He said throat infection. I guess it must have been all the chips, sweets, chocolate and fried food... XD
Ok... Went back and tried to sleep... Apparently I failed... Went to bed at 8. Stone there for 1.5 hours.
Reason? Put on blanket, very warm. Take off blanket, very cold. Sigh... Some other stuff kept me awake too... Sigh.
Oh well...

Was stoning practically the whole day... Damn boring... My voice is unusually low too... Its crappy, husky and weird...

Ok... I don't care, but I'm coming to school tomorrow. Don't give a damn anymore! Stay at home so sian...

See you ppl tomorrow!
さようなら！

Matthew's B'dae!

Ah.... My com is screwy screwed, so screwed till its screws are unscrewed. *Alliteration* XD
Yea... General re-cap of this week...
This week is average. But there are LOADS of quizzes... First, there was math...(Or was it last week?)
And then English narrative short story. And the IH quiz... Argh... Screwed its up TTM. The quiz and the paresmera (Epic spelling?) thingy... OH welll....

MATTHEW!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

O-M-F-G!! Played lazer tag my anergy shootout... I used the smaller sized, razor gun. Cause the bigger ones were gone. But I didn't regret taking the razors!

Played 3 missions. If I'm not wrong, Madhu, Valerie, Lisa, Tai zhi, Dominic, Shawn, Matt's cousin and sister, Ethan and Matthew were in my team. GREEN TEAM FTW! First mission. The team with the lesser respawns  wins the game.... Apparently we lost to the blue team by 2 respawns... We got 51... They got 49... DAMN.

Second mission. Each team has to try and tag the facilitators gun while alive. Each team got 1 facilitator. Anyway, We PWNED THE CRAP OUT OF THE BLUE TEAM We scored 20+-7...


Last mission was epic... Each person had 50 lives. Haha... Epic camping lo... XD We won the game... Woots...

Later played with water bombs... Damn that Delvin... Through one straight in my face... Got wet from head to toe at the right-side...

Apparently, Ethan sprained his ankle... Carilynne got a bruise... (Delvin must be trying to kill the asshole that did it...)XD 

Later went back to matt's to change... Attempted to play Life! But gave up... XD Played Bridge with del, WH and Anders. Later played werewolf... Quite fun... But too many ppl peeped... Lol.

Ate the birthday cake and left... Had to celebrate cousin's birthday... Went to sakura... Why did they choose sakura??? Their food not really that fantastic... Sigh...

Ok... Had a wild weekend... Haven't had this much fun... 

さようなら！

Good morning people!
I just came back from a lovely jog... Been long since I jogged with my dad......
No wait... Its not exactly jog... He was CUTTING across the field while I jog... >.<

Ok... Got loads of homework... Done chinese and maths... Still have chem and physics to go. *Sigh*
Friday was one screwed day... First, I got locked out of my phone... Was playing around with it... *ZACK!!! HOW COULD YOU BE SO DUMB!!*
Then I forgot to bring my Table-Tennis Jersey... Screwed eh... Didn't bring my racket too... Not to mention my shoes... Crap... Then... I forgot about the IH quiz... Which was CANCELED :D 

Then, MJ just had to start suanning me with some stuff-.-!! Stress!!! 

Luckily, Hansel managed to help me solve my phone... Wa... Damn heng nia...
Ok... Life ain't that bad eh? Then, during break, found out I had no money... Crap...

Ok... Now the physics car... Nooo....... Why do you hate us so much.... Why wont you continue going
straight... Why??? Sigh... Guess only the report can help us now... 

Wednesday... Physics was FUN! Dry Ice! Slide here and there... Never get the fun of playing with it... Some people were playing with the dry ice in a cleaner's bucket... 

I don't get the use of getting spoon feeded... I want freedom to think... Why won;t you understand? I've grown... You still spoon feed as if i don't know anything
Why can't you see... With those pathetic little eyes? I guess its all about trust eh? Stop bullshiting with whatever you think you know... But lemme tell you... You don't know a single shit. 




Sigh... Getting pwned in derr... With my pathetic little DDB... 10 misses so far... Encounting...