LOLOLOLOL HEYA FOLKS XD

Thought this blog is dead? Nah ah gonna revive it now XD

Sup people :P

Life this few days are quite unstable... There are happy ones, there are sad ones... Yeap... Sports day came and past... Haha... Was quite fun that day... Sadly people in Faraday weren't high at all DX No life de DX Sighh... Ah well... Though the last part, singing FRIDAY and IT'S MY LIFE --> Awesomeness :P

Lol I'm singing quite alot recently... Maybe I'm trying to cover up my sorrowness? Haha I have no idea lol XD Haha it's fun to sing without anyone listening haha...

Sing it for the boys, sing it for the girls
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Sing it from the heart
Sing it till you're nuts
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts 

Sing by My Chemical Romance

Great song XD Haha.... Guess thats all for now people...

Shall try not to let this bloggo die lolol :P Cya~

Just a dream

LOL random update....

Just a dream FTW? Haha.... Random~ XD

Ok cya folks till next time? Haha...

Astronaut

Heya people :)
Wheeee I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG XD


The song is by Simple Plan... Haha they rock too XD
Anyway, here's Astronaut by Simple Plan


Can anybody hear me?
Am I talking to myself?

My mind is running empty
In the search for someone
Else
Who doesn't look right through me
It's all just static in my
Head
Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite?

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I
Lost all signal when I lifted up
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot

Can I please come down (come down)
Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round
(And round) Can I please
Come down?

I'm deaf from all the silence
Is it something that I've done?

I know that there are millions
I can't be the only
One who's so disconnected
It's so different in my head.
Can anybody tell me
Why I'm lonely like a satellite?

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I
Lost all signal when I lifted up
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot

Can I please come down (come down)
Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round
(And round) Can I please
Come down?

Now I lie awake and scream in a zero gravity
And it's starting to weigh down on me.
Let's abort
This mission now
Can I please come down?

So tonight I'm calling all astronauts
Calling lonely people that the
World forgot
If you hear my voice come pick me up
Are you out there?

'Cause you're all I've got!

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And
I lost all signal when I lifted up
Now I'm stuck out here and the world
Forgot

Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
To
The lonely people that the world forgot Are you out there?
Cause you're all I've got!
Can I
Please come down? (please please please)
Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round.
Can I please come
Down?


P.S the lyrics came from this site -->http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/simple-plan-lyrics/astronaut-lyrics.html

Long time.... Again.

HEYA PEOPLE :D:D:D


Lol sorry for not updating... Can't seem to get into the mood to update lol.


Start of school.... Felt simple and normal.... I feel the life drained out of me lol. So maybe that's why I feel it's simple haha...


Well the first week ended... And I can feel the work piling up already. X.x Lucky it's a holiday tomorrow lol.


Seriously. Can't feel the cheery side of me now... Idk why...


 Guess we'll meet again once something nice happens lol.
Cya folks. :)

Haha sup people~

Haha idk what to say... Cause I have nothing much to say...

Anyway... Last week of hols... :( Guess it's back to the crazy workload and stuff.... Soooo not looking forward to it...

Ah well... Rough update for now...

as well as to keep you people to stop pestering me to update XD

cya folks XD

Ice Skating 8D

Heya people~ XD


Haha yesterday was class outing :D


WHEEEE ICCEEEE SKKAAATTTIINNNGGG WWWAAAASSS FUN :D:D:D
Though I feel kinda expensive ._.


But still FUN :D:D:D:D


Best part of ice skating.... Seeing Jaryl break dance XD haha someday i'm ma learn from you XD Haha...
Everyone should've tried it... Damn fun XD Got quite alotta photos too... 
*Shh.... Don't tell anyone XD*


Yeap... Guess that's it for now...
Cya folks :D

PT+Pass the message/ Counting game+ whole of saturday?

Heya people :D


Saturday... We had quite a long day... Both fun yet straining... Yeah...


Anyway, let's begin hmm?


Started the day with some pt... Had a light run followed by 5bx or 5 basic exercises.... 20 pushups, 20 crunches, 20 rangers, 20 berpies and 20 jumping jacks... Yeah. Struggled with pushups.... My arm strength was always the worst... Mehh. Needa work on it... Still working...


Breakfast was nice :D *Considering how hungry I was lol* XD Volunteered for clean-up but there were nothing much to clean lol


Anyway, proceeded to pass the message... Mainly we stand on a 8x8 grid with random numbers pasted face-down on them... And we had to pass a ball in a correct order without communicating... So we had to be very aware about the numbers... Later at the end, we were allowed to communicate all of a sudden... And everything was a mess.... So yeah... Learning point there...


Basically, we learnt when to talk and when not to / when to keep quiet... Yeah...


After this game was the disability game.... Yeah... Apparently I was blind-folded for the first round of games.... One of the station games was passing through a hoop while holding on to a rafia string... Simple you think? But I was blind-folded remember...? Haha... Yeah... Learnt to trust my teammates a lot... Yeah... *Luckily I'm quite audio... So it's still not so bad I guess....*


Personally I think being muted is the worst... Cause even if you have an idea, you can't say it out. Which is daaammmmnnnn frustrating... Yeah... I was muted once... And it's kinda hard to stop a habit... Especially when you hit someone by accident... So I accidentally apologised. lol For once apologizing is a bad thing lol.


This game, to me was a lot about communication and such... So yeah. Guess we were ok as a group... However sometimes, we just left the blinded alone there not doing anything... Yeah.


Next was some game with an internal committee with the others getting pt-ed... So in this game, was a lot to do with encouragement, as well as trying not to crack under pressure... Yeah...


Had lunch after that.... Quite good :D:D We discussed quite a bit about talent time too.... Fixed the plot etc. Speaking of which... Talent time is like a performance thing... Each group was given a sentence and we were suppose to come out with a story relating to that sentence, as well as include a compulsory action in our performance... As there were 7 groups, there were seven scenes, and they were somehow related... And it was our job to impromptu the bridging in between our scenes... Which was kinda.... Unpredictable... lol 


Shall tell you how it went later...


Shall continue again sometime... GTG liao lol


Till next time hmm?
See ya folks :)

Alice in wonderland? XD

Heya people :D

Well IT was FRIDAY FRIDAY~ XD night

Haha.... Well apparently MJ left his transcript in my house after crashing me house.... 

Time for some peeking of scores >:D

Haha... Went over to his house before leaving for the camp... Yeah...

Met Bronson along the way... Thanks to your mum for helping me find two pin plugs :D:D:D

Reached school around 6.30pm... Slacked around abit... Went into the theatrette at 7pm... Camp started :D:D:D:D

Group 3 FTW~ XD People in me group were Bronson, Bryan, Samuel, Joseph/ Weixuan, Nicole, Phyllis, Jiahong and Hajeong... Haha we make quite a good team hmm? Ohoh and not to forget our facils :D Nicky, Mag and Adrian :D

Icebreakers were first.... Played wack-o, splat, polar bear and do you love your neighbour XD Quite fun yeah...

Had the talent time briefing... Will talk about that later...

Started our first activity.... Alice in wonderland something like that....

Basically, our main objective was to use our 'money' to trade with merchants for poker cards... With ace being the lowest value and king being the highest value... And we were suppose to trade with the merchants for these cards, and the higher value the cards we have, the easier to win... HOWEVER... The merchants have different traits, and we had to communicate based on their traits or risk the deal...

There was a 'side quest' though... That was to find alice's lost journal... Which was 'actual' main point of the game, cause the journals gave us loads of info about the different traits, where the merchants were found, a decoding thingy and if we continued to go on, we would have found a log book... Which would give us clues to find alice! Which was actually Yuhan on the sixth floor...

And if we found him, we would have figured out which suit we were strong in, (thus scoring more points) and then winning the game... Yeah... So thats about it for this game...

Well... For this game, I guess we didn't really plan properly as a group, so we were like wandering around not knowing what to do... We didn't really have a sense of urgency too... So we ran outta time... And yeah... We didn't complete the game... Ah well...

That's about it for the first game...

Life :D

Heya people :D

Haha it's been a loooooooonnnnnngggg weekend for me... Haha no kidding...

Anyway, let's start.

Friday... Got back our transcripts... Quite happy with mine... Expected 4.3 or something like that... Haha.... An A for maths... Very very suprising. lol

But seriously. How can you celebrate when those dear to you are emoing...

Well.... MJ, Jaryl, David crashed me house later.... Haha... Nerf gunning randomly? And piano-ing...

Oh btw Jaryl, I DIDN'T IMPROVISE OK? I heard it in the song I have in my phone. lol

Went to macs later... Haha was damn pack can? Had to takeaway and eat outside along the benches... XD Well we got our Mac cups :D:D:D

Yeah... That's about it for the first part of the day.... To be continued...

Long time...

Heya people :D


Looks like it has been a long time since I updated XD Anyone missed me? XP


Haha.... Asking me why I won't update? Haha that's for yea to find out :P Call me lazy, irresponsible, whatever you want XD Lalala~ :P


Okok enough fooling around :P Exam results were out... Quite ok luh... Happy with some, not happy with some.... Ah well, that's life... Can't get the best outta both worlds.... Generally, I think I performed better than what I expected... Considering how badly I was failing in sem 1....


Anyway, PEA. Drama course was fun :P Laughing away at the performances put up... Haha :P Especially our own... Can't help laughing... Oops? 8D


Tuesday was some visit to some Art Museum.... Kinda interesting... But no offenses, but I ain't really into art.... Too complicated for me... I rather stick to music... lol Guess that's me. Anything to do with sounds I would love... But give me something visual.... X.x


Wednesday was fun :D:D:D:D Nature always calms people down.... And watching nature at it's finest was what the farm was about.... Haha organic farming :D We really need more of these kinda people.... Seriously... Mother Earth is the only place we have to live yeah? We should really protect it hmm?
And on a more personal side, if we humans would find another planet like Earth to live in, wouldn't the result be the same? The planet would still end up like Earth won't it? Humans mentality are always like this. Sigh.... Wish I could live in the old times... Peaceful, calm, carefree.... Yeah.


Guess that's it.... Just finished packing for the SC camp.... Haha.... I'm looking forward and not looking forward to it... lol Kinda contradicting eh? Ah well... Going there would be like sleeping with people I don't really know.... Gonna be awkward... Bleh. I don't like this white-personality part of me.... X.x


Haha you can skip this part if yea want...


Now on a more personal side....


Haha a lot has happened lately... Feel like writing down another song perhaps? Btw, the previous song, I haven't started on the lyrics... I might even scrape it... Just feels kinda contradicting to how I feel now.... Or it just doesn't represent what I feel.... Mehh. The weight of my feelings then are like this small comapared to my feelings now.


What my feelings are like? Messy. There's like so many piles of mess in my head. All completely unrelated. Sigh.... When you're young, you wish you would grow up faster... Now that we're grown up, we wanna stay young. Haha this sentence make's so much more sense now.... Ah well.

Random~

Heya peeps....

Been long since I posted...... Hahaha.... MISSED ME? XD

Haha... Exams is like this Thursday... Mehh. Screw bio... DX I'm hoping Cai Lao Shi is gonna kind to us and set an easy paper for us DX Ah well... Going through the bio past year exam papers, I hope this year's paper is gonna as easy as theirs... But dang. Their structured questions like essay nia DX Bleh >.<

Bleh. Stress is coming up.... Can't screw this exams up... DX Ah well.... Can't screw maths up especially.... But dang... It's geometry... I can't seem to visualise... Bleh. I just take.... Too long hey? Ah well....

Sianz... Been addicted to simple plan recently.... Jet Lag... Can't keep my hands off you.... Ohoh and Coming home too XD Yeah....

Is it just me? Or am I being blinded?

This life I'm living, is it worth living?

All I've done, is it worth my time?

All my efforts, just sacrificed.

In the end, I just find myself lying.

*Caught in this web of lies*

Spinning this web of lies

Oh, how long would it last?

Just waking up from this sleep

I feel so deceived

This sense of desperation

Just following like crazy shadow

Someone, anyone

Just save me from this lie....

I just needa stop this in it's tracks

I'm slowly driven up the wall

My mind is bursting from the pressure

This pain is getting unbearable

But for the better, Imma bear this burden....

*Spinning this web of lies*

Spinning this web of lies

Oh, how long would it last?

Just waking up from this sleep

I feel so deceived

This sense of desperation

Just following like crazy shadow

Someone, anyone

Just save me from this lie....

But!

I'm sick of being pushed by you!

I'm tired of being stepped on!

And I'm not gonna let this go on!

Don't regret when I'm gone!

You took me from granted...

But it all come's back again

Spinning this web of lies

Oh, how long would it last?

Just waking up from this sleep

I feel so deceived

This sense of desperation

Just following like crazy shadow

Someone, anyone

Just save me from this lie....

Well.... That's my song completed.... Yeah...

Well so far.... It's till here... That's the main layout I guess.... Ah well.... Guess thats it... See ya all~

Random

Is it just me? Or am I being retarded?

This life I'm living, is it worth living?

All I've done, is it worth my time?

All my efforts, just sacrificed.

In the end, I just find myself lying.


Haha heya people XD


Well.... Those few words ^ MIGHT be the first verse of a.... I don't know. Something? XD So.... Tell me what yea think?


Haha.... Signing off...

First day of the term...

Heya folks :D


Holidays just ended... The start of a new term... Meh. I ain't looking forward to it... Zzz....


Why is it always, that the start of a term doesn't seem to always work out for me? Greeted my loads of test, projects, more problems that just keep bombarding me like no one's business? WTF yeah? Sigh...


LOL. ^ Was supposed to be posted on like, first week of the term? LOL OOPS? XD Didn't bother to click the publish post button. XP


Haha you people missed me?? XDXD Sorry luh... Will update more once the exams end....


Anyway, I'm finally fulfilling everyone's request to 'revive' my blog.... LOL. Sorry.... Been kinda busy these few days... So many deadlines and shit. Ah well. When I felt like things would end, another thing comes along... Bleh. Ah well.... Take one step at a time I guess....


Haha.... Now let's talk about today.... Firstly, Maths test....


Well.... Was pretty ok... Just that I don't think I performed up to standard luh.... I've been falling behind deadlines already.... Lessons getting harder to catch up.... Better start doing something about this..... 


Anyway, lets go on to napfa. I'm surprised at what I actually did more pull ups yeah? Like seriously, wow. I did better than expected for the shuttle run too... Wasn't expecting that gay results.... Guess lowering my CG does help XD. BUUTTT. I overdid it in the second run. *IH inference question, What happened next?* XP


Yeah ouch. Sit ups was fine... Idk if I was doing the correct style... DX Mehh. Anyway, standing broad jump was fine.... Average I guess? Well.... Tip to those out there, just keep trying, and you can get the momentum yeah? Practice makes perfect... Jiayous :D


Now this is where the craziness of the left arm sets in.... Worse injury I've got so far... I think... Ah well. Add that with random spells of headaches... Sigh.... My body is feeling really weak these few days.... Guess i'm not getting enough sleep.


Ah well.... I've gotten addicted to 'I need a doctor' these few days LOL. You know, eminem's raps are really unique.... No one can add emotions to a song like he does.... You know, thats what I aim to do... Expressing emotions through sounds and sounds alone... Nothing else. Yeah.... Hope I can do that in my coming songs.... Yeah....


Guessed thats it for now... Sorry peeps... Guess I'll update as long as I have time.... See ya folks :)

You know how much it hurts being unable to do anything?

Life :D

Haha heya people!

How's the hols so far? Haha.... Mine is... Fine yet sucky....

Haha.... Let's talk about today...

Well... Went to Botanic Gardens today... For a family outing yeah? Haha.... Seriously, I'm wondering what the humans are doing luh.... I mean. It's a Botanic GARDEN. Shouldn't it be more natural? So artificial.... Like all the leaves swept to a nice little pile for em to decompose. It's like, so artificial.... Sigh.... Humans...

You know, sometimes, I feel really helpless/hopeless? Its like, I wanna do something for Earth, do something for maybe Japan or something, counter animal abuse/global warming? I mean, I don't get why others, are like so self-centered... Come on.... Mother Earth is DYING. Zzz.

Ah well.... You know what I rather have for a family outing? Some talking would do.... Sitting by the coffee table, talking about crap, that would be the best yea know? Or going as a family watching the sunset or something... Not going ta some bullshit place like botanic gardens.... Sigh...

You know, holidays are times where one should spend time thinking yeah? There questions I've been dying ta know, questions I wanna answer. So many things yeah? Sigh.... What I wanna do when I grow up, what I wanna accomplish in life, whether I this shit I'm doing is worth it, whether I'm really relying too much on technology. And the answer ta this question, what does my heart exactly want? Sigh....

You know, I just feel like writing all these into a song yea know? Express everything inside and start singing my heart out... And I would be glad, if I have people my age, that actually care about me yea know? Sigh.... And then there's the shit about biting more than I can chew.... There's the band, there's the song thing, there's school, and there's friends and family, I'm not sure if I can actually live through this crap yeah?

Just got into a quarrel with my dad.... Sigh...

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

There might have been a time 
When I would give myself away 
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn 
But now, here we are so whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

Just don't give up I'm workin it out 
Please don't give in, I won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see) 
that baby you're beautiful 
And there's nothing wrong with you 
(nothing wrong with you) 
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah) 
but thanks for lovin' me 
Cause you're doing it perfectly 
(it perfectly) 

There might have been a time 
When I would let you slip away 
I wouldn't even try 
But I think you could save my life 


Just don't give up I'm workin' it out 
Please don't give in, I won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep comin around 
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me) 
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me) 

Just don't give up on me 
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down 
No, I won't let you down 

(So hey) just don't give up 
I'm workin it out 
Please don't give in, 
I won't let you down 
It messed me up (It messed me up) 
Need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me 

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out 
Please don't give in, i won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me) 
whataya want from me (whataya want from me) 
whataya want from me

Guess that pretty much summarises everything.... What do you want from me? What do I want from myself? idk.... Seriously.

Biting of more than I can chew~

Signing off folks~

Till next time~

Life :D

Haha heya people :D I'm back XD


Haha.... Wondering why I posted all of a sudden? Haha.... Cause I got chased by *ahem* XP


Now here you have it, I'm posting.... :P


Okok.... 
FINALLY. WE GET TO REST FOR A WEEK :D:D:D
Yeah... Haha.... Finally.... We're test-free. XD Haha....


Yesterday was house carnival.... Kinda fun yeah? Haha..... Tagball.... Played 2 matches... Haha we kenna pwned by fleming... 7-1. Didn't even get a chance to hold the ball DX Well... We kinda gave it away too.... Cause all our better people didn't play.... NVM. At least we got 2nd :D Haha.


WTH luh. Valerie and David damn cheapo nia... Spamming the pea game again and again and again and again and again. LOL. Went to play the table tennis juggling ball thingy... Joined PY and Jace for the mad scientist lab station.... Haha.... And I suppose, we jumped queue? Oops :P Joined TH together with MJ and WH. LOL. They were suaning the people there. Ah well... Not bad luh.... Especially the mask stalking one. XD


Yeah.... Pretty much it.... Haha.... Celebrated Carilynne's birthday later.... Haha... The usual cake and stuff.... And yeah... Walked with the gang to sumo house.... Left em later.... Haha...
Rather, I just wanna be left alone luh.... Don't wanna go with a large group and yeah. Pfffft. Personal reasons too. lol. Wonder if they would understand, that sometimes, whites just needa be left alone....
Finally..... I day that I feel stress free :D Haha.... Pretty much slacked the entire day today XP. Haha.... Just finished exercising.... My whole body aches X.x Haha XD


Well.... I don't think I'm gonna slack the entire holidays right? So yeah... Here's a list on what I'm gonna TRY to finish....


Complete me song cover I'm working on....
Start exercising.... *I'm gonna pull up me class's nafa average :D*
Touch up on my maths, physics and chemistry DX
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY. the band. LOL.


LINKIN PARK'S COMING TO SINGAPORE :D


Haha..... That's about it peeps. See ya :D

Life :D

Haha heya people :D


Haha.... Been long since I updated? LOL.
Anyway... March is by far the busiest so far? Tests etc. And so many birthdays to keep track off. LOL. Anyway, Happy Birthday Woo Jin! :D


Anyways, today was quite average study-wise... Usual state of feeling tired... Gosh I really should sleep early.... But heck there's a chem test tomorrow! DX




Ah well... Emotions-wise. Haha. One big piece of crap waiting for me.... Let's start from the beginning.... Really, people with white personalities.... You don't wanna piss em off.... Cause really, if they are pissed, good luck :D Been waiting for Mr Cheong to finally blow up at the level.... And what happened today during assembly? Pfffft. They so deserved it....




Ah well.... Sigh.... You wanna know where at least half of my emo-ness come from? From people all around.... Is it just me? Cause I always find myself trying to help.... And those that I care the most, either I can't help, or they dao. Zzzz..... It feels damn bad luh... Sigh... And yeah, I ain't gonna mention names, so even if you ask me, no way I'm answering. lol.




Talent search is tomorrow too.... Feeling worse than a jellyfish yeah? Sigh.... Wondering where was the confidence I had like a week ago? Zzz....


FYI. Ranting ahead. So yeah.... Kindly Ctrl + W, or Alt + F4




And I can't take it yeah? So much vulgarities going around.... *Though I do say em when I'm real tense DX* Really. I should bring some soap someday and shove em to their mouths yeah? Shouting like its no one's beeswax. Wth yeah?
Haha.... I don't know what got into you? But heck. You are really becoming a reeeeaaaalll female dog. No offense but really, Do some self reflection someday. Pffffft. Wonder what got into me last year. Or have you changed? Only time will tell.... And screw I don't wanna have anything to do with you. Pffffft. IF you don't want people to eavesdrop. THEN SHUT YOUR TRAP. PFFFFFFT.
Haha.... And seriously. There's just one more person..... Seriously. Get it right. Between an infatuation and love. Pffffft. You think I'm jealous or something? I think not! PFFFFFT. Get a life yeah? Claiming you wanna protect her and stuff. But seriously, ever heard of privacy in group projects? Ever heard of it? I think not. Seriously. Get. A. Life.


Well.... Guess I'm slightly better after ranting? And no I ain't gonna mention names, so yeah....


Till next time folks :)
Bye~

Life :D

MS NG IS COMING BACK!! :D:D:D:D:D
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HAPPAY I AM YEAH? FINALLY :D lol. Must be the cookies I ate :P Made me so high. XD


Haha... Ok if you're lost, well.... Just came back from fixing up Ms Ng's welcome card and baking cookies for her and the class :D Haha.... She's been away for 4 months yeah? Dang I miss her mentoring and stuff.... Cause I feel that Miss Lim get the class going the way she wants, no offences but yeah.... Now she's leaving us with a bad impression. DX Ah well. Guess that's life :)


Anyway back to the topic. Haha.... First time baking cookies :D Damn fun can? Haha.... Jacelyn, Delvin and I were like gobbling up raw dough 8D Oops~ XD Maybe that's why my stomach is hurting Oops. XP


Yeah.... My hands are itching to play table-tennis DX AH WELL. I'm addicted to two things. Music. And Table-Tennis. Haha....Take one away = Me GG. Haha random~~


Speaking of which, CORE is up and coming yeah? Haha.... Band practice yesterday :D Wheee~~~ We improved on numb :D David added somemore improvisation to his drums *i think* And I improved on me background singing and piano synchronization :D Well... Valerie's vocals are pro. Damn pro can? Lisa's guitar has better accuracy. 


TALENT SEARCH YOU WATCH OUT.
Though I think we'll GG.DX


Ah well. LOL. Anyway, yesterday, had fun too :D Nerf Guns :D Haha... I LOVE THAT SNIPER. XD Ah well.... Finished up the banner.... At the end, all that helped, were caught red-handed decorating. Geddit? RED-handed? 8D *Ouch... Cold eh? XD* Yeah... Our hands were red. *Looks at Valerie* *Ahem* Someone said they were wash-able? LOL.


Haha.... Meh. Just had a very scary, and weird REM sleep dream. Dang... I'm still emo-ing over it luh.... What if it really happens? I won't be able to take it... So much about having mental strength... Guess everyone has their weakness eh? I really can't bare to think about it yeah? Sigh...... If it really happens, what will happen to me? Can I get back up? It's not a matter of if, its a matter of when.... Meh.... Guess it's part and parcel of life eh? You don't know how glad I was waking up from the dream..... DX


And there's that screwed up part of me.... Meh. One tells me to let go. The other tells me to go for it. AHHHHH. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY YEAH? Zzz.... Sigh.... Guess I shall let it have time to chill eh? Sigh.... I wanna know what I'm actually thinking about yeah? Sigh.... Hopefully.... By next month... Everything will finally settle.....


Sigh.... I hate staying at a corner, and watch my best friends. Those I treasure the most, get their butt kicked by life yeah? I wanna help... I'm trying to..... But heck why can't I get things right? Meh. It's more like I'm adding fuel to fire? Idk yeah? I really want to help.... Let me help.... Or maybe I don't know you well enough? And no relax Hansel.... It's not you. LOL.


Haha ok.... Signing off.....
Cya folks...


P.S. Kudos if you got the secret not so hidden message XP

LONGGGG TIME~

HEYA PEOPLE. I BET YOU MISSED ME! XD
But seriously. It has been a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONNGGG time since I posted. Haha.....


Year 2 is really busy compared to last year hmm? Finally had time to post :D Haha....


Let's talk about year 2 life hmm? Wow. This year, there's a lot more stuff to do.... More projects, more complicated stuff. Sigh.... I don't know how long and can hold.... I'm feeling the heat, and my fingers can't hold me on that ledge forever right? I can't even find time to play my piano D:


Sigh... Getting more and more screwed. Maths, Chem, IH, are like getting harder to cope with.... DX I'm SOOOOO lucky physics this time is what I like. Heat transfer and stuff. Yeah......


I really don't know how long I can hold.... And being a mentor rep. and stuff. And a CCA captain for C div. I really don't know how long I can hold onto this yeah. The stress and all, is insane yeah? Ah well. We'll see how it goes.




Sigh. And there are those relationships, friendships and stuff. Now I realised, friends are so much more important. Especially at this stage. It's just so hard to find a friend that you can trust. Those that I trusted, all gave them away. Except that minority two..... Always supporting.


Sigh.... You can't have the best of both worlds eh? One is older, and equally messed up like me. Or worse I can say. And the other is like, sotong? O.o LOL. Ah well. Now I feel, that it's so much easier to get along with girls than guys. The guys in my class are like. Uber immature. Gosh. Don't they know when to play, and when to be serious? Sigh.


Speaking of which. I don't get it, why do people in our class hate Ms Lim so much? She's damn nice you know? It's just that, you people don't give her a chance. Have you ever heard the noise level our class makes? If Ms Ng were to be there, she would do the same! I admit it, her speech isn't so clear, but does it give you people that right to go against her and all?


SHE'S OUR TEACHER FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE.
I really don't get it. Sigh.... Maybe because I'm white? That I'm taking her side? The flaw everyone has, is that they can't seem to put themselves into other's shoes, or view the situation from a 3rd person view. I hate it yeah? Pisses me off big time yeah?




Sigh. You know why I hate being a leader? Cause it brings too much attention, and stress to oneself. A bit of attention is good. BUT HECK. I HATE BEING THE CENTER OF ATTRACTION.
And whenever something goes wrong? All fingers point at me. What is this man.... Maybe thats part and parcel of life? I don't know......




With the exception of those two mentioned above, at this point, not even I can trust my so called 'friends'. Heh. So contradicting. Do you let out other's secrets, because you played TOT?
I TRUSTED YOU. I. TRUSTED. YOU.
AND WHAT DID YOU DO? YOU DON'T DESERVE MY TRUST HMM?
Heh. Bunch of bullshit. Pffft.


And everyone changed during the holidays. Even her. Sigh. You became so, yellow all of a sudden. I don't know what happened, but you became so high, so over-reacting, so attention seeking, so rash all of a sudden. I'm wondering, where was the girl I know? Well, it could be that I'm finding excuses, but even others also agree. Sigh.... And worse of all. You assume. Pffffft. Did I mention I hate assumers big time? I try to hide it, but damn I really hate assumers. *Though I find myself assuming sometimes. DX* Sigh. I can't feel you there anymore. Maybe this is where it all ends? Ah well. 


Haha.... On a lighter note,


DAMN 203 IS AWESOME. LIKE BIG TIME :D XD.
Haha.....


Signing off~ :D