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Is it just me? Or am I being retarded?

This life I'm living, is it worth living?

All I've done, is it worth my time?

All my efforts, just sacrificed.

In the end, I just find myself lying.


Haha heya people XD


Well.... Those few words ^ MIGHT be the first verse of a.... I don't know. Something? XD So.... Tell me what yea think?


Haha.... Signing off...

First day of the term...

Heya folks :D


Holidays just ended... The start of a new term... Meh. I ain't looking forward to it... Zzz....


Why is it always, that the start of a term doesn't seem to always work out for me? Greeted my loads of test, projects, more problems that just keep bombarding me like no one's business? WTF yeah? Sigh...


LOL. ^ Was supposed to be posted on like, first week of the term? LOL OOPS? XD Didn't bother to click the publish post button. XP


Haha you people missed me?? XDXD Sorry luh... Will update more once the exams end....


Anyway, I'm finally fulfilling everyone's request to 'revive' my blog.... LOL. Sorry.... Been kinda busy these few days... So many deadlines and shit. Ah well. When I felt like things would end, another thing comes along... Bleh. Ah well.... Take one step at a time I guess....


Haha.... Now let's talk about today.... Firstly, Maths test....


Well.... Was pretty ok... Just that I don't think I performed up to standard luh.... I've been falling behind deadlines already.... Lessons getting harder to catch up.... Better start doing something about this..... 


Anyway, lets go on to napfa. I'm surprised at what I actually did more pull ups yeah? Like seriously, wow. I did better than expected for the shuttle run too... Wasn't expecting that gay results.... Guess lowering my CG does help XD. BUUTTT. I overdid it in the second run. *IH inference question, What happened next?* XP


Yeah ouch. Sit ups was fine... Idk if I was doing the correct style... DX Mehh. Anyway, standing broad jump was fine.... Average I guess? Well.... Tip to those out there, just keep trying, and you can get the momentum yeah? Practice makes perfect... Jiayous :D


Now this is where the craziness of the left arm sets in.... Worse injury I've got so far... I think... Ah well. Add that with random spells of headaches... Sigh.... My body is feeling really weak these few days.... Guess i'm not getting enough sleep.


Ah well.... I've gotten addicted to 'I need a doctor' these few days LOL. You know, eminem's raps are really unique.... No one can add emotions to a song like he does.... You know, thats what I aim to do... Expressing emotions through sounds and sounds alone... Nothing else. Yeah.... Hope I can do that in my coming songs.... Yeah....


Guessed thats it for now... Sorry peeps... Guess I'll update as long as I have time.... See ya folks :)

You know how much it hurts being unable to do anything?

Life :D

Haha heya people!

How's the hols so far? Haha.... Mine is... Fine yet sucky....

Haha.... Let's talk about today...

Well... Went to Botanic Gardens today... For a family outing yeah? Haha.... Seriously, I'm wondering what the humans are doing luh.... I mean. It's a Botanic GARDEN. Shouldn't it be more natural? So artificial.... Like all the leaves swept to a nice little pile for em to decompose. It's like, so artificial.... Sigh.... Humans...

You know, sometimes, I feel really helpless/hopeless? Its like, I wanna do something for Earth, do something for maybe Japan or something, counter animal abuse/global warming? I mean, I don't get why others, are like so self-centered... Come on.... Mother Earth is DYING. Zzz.

Ah well.... You know what I rather have for a family outing? Some talking would do.... Sitting by the coffee table, talking about crap, that would be the best yea know? Or going as a family watching the sunset or something... Not going ta some bullshit place like botanic gardens.... Sigh...

You know, holidays are times where one should spend time thinking yeah? There questions I've been dying ta know, questions I wanna answer. So many things yeah? Sigh.... What I wanna do when I grow up, what I wanna accomplish in life, whether I this shit I'm doing is worth it, whether I'm really relying too much on technology. And the answer ta this question, what does my heart exactly want? Sigh....

You know, I just feel like writing all these into a song yea know? Express everything inside and start singing my heart out... And I would be glad, if I have people my age, that actually care about me yea know? Sigh.... And then there's the shit about biting more than I can chew.... There's the band, there's the song thing, there's school, and there's friends and family, I'm not sure if I can actually live through this crap yeah?

Just got into a quarrel with my dad.... Sigh...

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

There might have been a time 
When I would give myself away 
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn 
But now, here we are so whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

Just don't give up I'm workin it out 
Please don't give in, I won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see) 
that baby you're beautiful 
And there's nothing wrong with you 
(nothing wrong with you) 
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah) 
but thanks for lovin' me 
Cause you're doing it perfectly 
(it perfectly) 

There might have been a time 
When I would let you slip away 
I wouldn't even try 
But I think you could save my life 


Just don't give up I'm workin' it out 
Please don't give in, I won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep comin around 
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me) 
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me) 

Just don't give up on me 
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down 
No, I won't let you down 

(So hey) just don't give up 
I'm workin it out 
Please don't give in, 
I won't let you down 
It messed me up (It messed me up) 
Need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me 

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out 
Please don't give in, i won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me) 
whataya want from me (whataya want from me) 
whataya want from me

Guess that pretty much summarises everything.... What do you want from me? What do I want from myself? idk.... Seriously.

Biting of more than I can chew~

Signing off folks~

Till next time~

Life :D

Haha heya people :D I'm back XD


Haha.... Wondering why I posted all of a sudden? Haha.... Cause I got chased by *ahem* XP


Now here you have it, I'm posting.... :P


Okok.... 
FINALLY. WE GET TO REST FOR A WEEK :D:D:D
Yeah... Haha.... Finally.... We're test-free. XD Haha....


Yesterday was house carnival.... Kinda fun yeah? Haha..... Tagball.... Played 2 matches... Haha we kenna pwned by fleming... 7-1. Didn't even get a chance to hold the ball DX Well... We kinda gave it away too.... Cause all our better people didn't play.... NVM. At least we got 2nd :D Haha.


WTH luh. Valerie and David damn cheapo nia... Spamming the pea game again and again and again and again and again. LOL. Went to play the table tennis juggling ball thingy... Joined PY and Jace for the mad scientist lab station.... Haha.... And I suppose, we jumped queue? Oops :P Joined TH together with MJ and WH. LOL. They were suaning the people there. Ah well... Not bad luh.... Especially the mask stalking one. XD


Yeah.... Pretty much it.... Haha.... Celebrated Carilynne's birthday later.... Haha... The usual cake and stuff.... And yeah... Walked with the gang to sumo house.... Left em later.... Haha...
Rather, I just wanna be left alone luh.... Don't wanna go with a large group and yeah. Pfffft. Personal reasons too. lol. Wonder if they would understand, that sometimes, whites just needa be left alone....
Finally..... I day that I feel stress free :D Haha.... Pretty much slacked the entire day today XP. Haha.... Just finished exercising.... My whole body aches X.x Haha XD


Well.... I don't think I'm gonna slack the entire holidays right? So yeah... Here's a list on what I'm gonna TRY to finish....


Complete me song cover I'm working on....
Start exercising.... *I'm gonna pull up me class's nafa average :D*
Touch up on my maths, physics and chemistry DX
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY. the band. LOL.


LINKIN PARK'S COMING TO SINGAPORE :D


Haha..... That's about it peeps. See ya :D

Life :D

Haha heya people :D


Haha.... Been long since I updated? LOL.
Anyway... March is by far the busiest so far? Tests etc. And so many birthdays to keep track off. LOL. Anyway, Happy Birthday Woo Jin! :D


Anyways, today was quite average study-wise... Usual state of feeling tired... Gosh I really should sleep early.... But heck there's a chem test tomorrow! DX




Ah well... Emotions-wise. Haha. One big piece of crap waiting for me.... Let's start from the beginning.... Really, people with white personalities.... You don't wanna piss em off.... Cause really, if they are pissed, good luck :D Been waiting for Mr Cheong to finally blow up at the level.... And what happened today during assembly? Pfffft. They so deserved it....




Ah well.... Sigh.... You wanna know where at least half of my emo-ness come from? From people all around.... Is it just me? Cause I always find myself trying to help.... And those that I care the most, either I can't help, or they dao. Zzzz..... It feels damn bad luh... Sigh... And yeah, I ain't gonna mention names, so even if you ask me, no way I'm answering. lol.




Talent search is tomorrow too.... Feeling worse than a jellyfish yeah? Sigh.... Wondering where was the confidence I had like a week ago? Zzz....


FYI. Ranting ahead. So yeah.... Kindly Ctrl + W, or Alt + F4




And I can't take it yeah? So much vulgarities going around.... *Though I do say em when I'm real tense DX* Really. I should bring some soap someday and shove em to their mouths yeah? Shouting like its no one's beeswax. Wth yeah?
Haha.... I don't know what got into you? But heck. You are really becoming a reeeeaaaalll female dog. No offense but really, Do some self reflection someday. Pffffft. Wonder what got into me last year. Or have you changed? Only time will tell.... And screw I don't wanna have anything to do with you. Pffffft. IF you don't want people to eavesdrop. THEN SHUT YOUR TRAP. PFFFFFFT.
Haha.... And seriously. There's just one more person..... Seriously. Get it right. Between an infatuation and love. Pffffft. You think I'm jealous or something? I think not! PFFFFFT. Get a life yeah? Claiming you wanna protect her and stuff. But seriously, ever heard of privacy in group projects? Ever heard of it? I think not. Seriously. Get. A. Life.


Well.... Guess I'm slightly better after ranting? And no I ain't gonna mention names, so yeah....


Till next time folks :)
Bye~

Life :D

MS NG IS COMING BACK!! :D:D:D:D:D
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW HAPPAY I AM YEAH? FINALLY :D lol. Must be the cookies I ate :P Made me so high. XD


Haha... Ok if you're lost, well.... Just came back from fixing up Ms Ng's welcome card and baking cookies for her and the class :D Haha.... She's been away for 4 months yeah? Dang I miss her mentoring and stuff.... Cause I feel that Miss Lim get the class going the way she wants, no offences but yeah.... Now she's leaving us with a bad impression. DX Ah well. Guess that's life :)


Anyway back to the topic. Haha.... First time baking cookies :D Damn fun can? Haha.... Jacelyn, Delvin and I were like gobbling up raw dough 8D Oops~ XD Maybe that's why my stomach is hurting Oops. XP


Yeah.... My hands are itching to play table-tennis DX AH WELL. I'm addicted to two things. Music. And Table-Tennis. Haha....Take one away = Me GG. Haha random~~


Speaking of which, CORE is up and coming yeah? Haha.... Band practice yesterday :D Wheee~~~ We improved on numb :D David added somemore improvisation to his drums *i think* And I improved on me background singing and piano synchronization :D Well... Valerie's vocals are pro. Damn pro can? Lisa's guitar has better accuracy. 


TALENT SEARCH YOU WATCH OUT.
Though I think we'll GG.DX


Ah well. LOL. Anyway, yesterday, had fun too :D Nerf Guns :D Haha... I LOVE THAT SNIPER. XD Ah well.... Finished up the banner.... At the end, all that helped, were caught red-handed decorating. Geddit? RED-handed? 8D *Ouch... Cold eh? XD* Yeah... Our hands were red. *Looks at Valerie* *Ahem* Someone said they were wash-able? LOL.


Haha.... Meh. Just had a very scary, and weird REM sleep dream. Dang... I'm still emo-ing over it luh.... What if it really happens? I won't be able to take it... So much about having mental strength... Guess everyone has their weakness eh? I really can't bare to think about it yeah? Sigh...... If it really happens, what will happen to me? Can I get back up? It's not a matter of if, its a matter of when.... Meh.... Guess it's part and parcel of life eh? You don't know how glad I was waking up from the dream..... DX


And there's that screwed up part of me.... Meh. One tells me to let go. The other tells me to go for it. AHHHHH. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY YEAH? Zzz.... Sigh.... Guess I shall let it have time to chill eh? Sigh.... I wanna know what I'm actually thinking about yeah? Sigh.... Hopefully.... By next month... Everything will finally settle.....


Sigh.... I hate staying at a corner, and watch my best friends. Those I treasure the most, get their butt kicked by life yeah? I wanna help... I'm trying to..... But heck why can't I get things right? Meh. It's more like I'm adding fuel to fire? Idk yeah? I really want to help.... Let me help.... Or maybe I don't know you well enough? And no relax Hansel.... It's not you. LOL.


Haha ok.... Signing off.....
Cya folks...


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